Becoming a whore!

If you read that headline, I’m sure you’re thinking of all kinds of sexy, kinky things. After all, so many crossdressers, at least at the beginning, start with this idea of creating a very slutty image, which has this strange appeal for us of the male persuasion. I believe — but I might be totally wrong! — that most crossdressers (but definitely not all), as they start to get more in touch with their feminine sides, slowly abandon the ultra-slutty look and try to explore a more sensitive, feminine side of themselves.

This is naturally not universal. Many transgendered people feel the strong urge to become a slutty female, even after transitioning. So many, in fact, that there is a whole industry around that. Others, sadly, are driven to the streets in order to survive, and while all they wanted to enjoy was their new feminine self, they have no other choice to become sex workers to be able to eat and pay the bills. No small wonder so many are not willing to go that route.

Well, this is about something else. Many of you are aware that I’m sometimes available at Cam4 or xHamster. I do that mostly to spend some time while waiting for some of my CD friends to arrive. It’s always fun, because these sites are clearly for pornography, and the last thing in my mind is to do some strip shows there. In fact, as I’ve explained before, all I do in them is to smile, smoke, and engage in conversation. I do nothing else. Surprisingly enough, I often get full rooms that way, even when I’m using the bad webcam from my laptop!

Both these sites accept tips. Gold or premium members are allowed to”buy” tips which they give to the performers they like most, hoping for a private show or thanking them for doing something “special”. Whatever the reason, webcam performers can earn some money that way, and I noticed that I already had US$5.30 on xHamster. You might think that’s not much, but when you realize that it’s all I might have by the end of the month to eat for a few days before getting my student’s grant, it becomes more important. And for three times that amount, I can buy a new dress or some lipstick.

So, well, today I signed up for these two sites as a “performer”. This is just an euphemism to describe the oldest profession in the world: getting paid for sexual activities. Even though all I do is to smile, smoke and chat, for some reason this might be exciting for a lot of people — enough for some to be willing to part with a few dollars. So, why not?

The encouragement came mostly from a CD friend of mine, who looks gorgeous on webcam (and I mean it, I’m not exaggerating). She is a closet crossdresser, and a rather irregular one — wasting months without getting ever dressed again, and then, all of a sudden, remaining glued to her webcam for days at a time. She’s very amusing, has a brilliant humour, and is fond of doing all kinds of kinky things on webcam. And she has the body and the looks for doing that — she’d be prime candidate for a full transition turning her into a supermodel without anyone noticing the gender she has been born with. In reality, she has absolutely no intention of transitioning — the thought is completely alien to her — and has no need of hormone therapy or surgery, she’s just that kind of T-girl who naturally looks like a woman without doing any special effort, and she can even pass without any makeup. Gosh, she’s so lucky! 🙂 (How I envy her!)

At some point in time, she started joining a lot of paid webcam sites as a “performer”, and made regularly a few hundreds of dollars every day. And she admitted that she didn’t even need to do strip jobs most of the time, and would only reserve them to special customers who were quite willing to pay for the privilege. At that time, I understand that she was financially not doing very well, so the extra money was a treat to her. Later, as her financial condition improved, she avoided the “business” for a while, even though now and then she still logs in to those sites.

Well, I’m not really interested in taking such a huge step. Both Cam4 and xHamster work slightly differently, with the tipping scheme. Viewers are not really “forced” to pay for the girls they want to watch; they just spread a few tips around on the girls they like most, but there is no obligation to do so. While private chats can definitely be arranged for a certain amount of tips, this is all up to the girl and their eventual customer. I suppose that these sites use that kind of system to avoid being labelled as a full-fledged prostitution organisation. It’s more like paying a drink to a nice girl in a bar — that doesn’t turn the bar into a whorehouse.

On the other hand, of course, one cannot expect to make a lot of money this way. Which I’m not expecting to do. Still it might be enough to cover the hosting and maintenance fees of this website — which would be great! — and, who knows, I might be able to buy something for myself once in a while. I don’t expect much more than that. I also don’t wish to be glued in front of them during all the time I’m dressed, but just while waiting for my CD girlfriends to come online — there are often several “dead” moments where I have little else to do but write on my blog or keep up doing my (always late) work. So, why not use that time for having fun chatting with strangers, charming them, and accepting some tips? 🙂

I’ve submitted my application to both websites today, and now I’m waiting for their approval. We’ll see if I can test this out the next time I’m dressed — which won’t happen until next Sunday, at best. 🙁

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