Aw thanks, Ronae! You know, I tend to complain too much. So many people have far, far worse experiences! So this blog is a way to vent out some of my frustrations. When I do that, I read my article again, and say, "well, it's really not that bad. So many people are feeling way worse. Stop complaining and enjoy what you have, girl!"

And it's true. My wife keeps telling me that the more I do, the less satisfaction I have, and I want to do even more and more. She's right, of course. As I often tell people, if it weren't for her, I'd get crazy and go through full transition and probably ruin my life completely — jobless, friendless, possibly having to sell my body to survive. Is that the solution? For some, it might very well be, if for them "being a woman" is more important than anything else in the world. But when I think deeply about my own situation, I cannot, in truth, claim that it's that important. So I resign myself to what I have and what I'm allowed to enjoy and see how so much better it is than what so many others unfortunately are unable to get. I should rejoice in my own luck!

So you found me at Lucille's site? Hehe. I love the things Lucille is doing for the community. She's awesome, and of course she is also doing it for profit, so I've bought some of her books and things. But she's the kind of person that is leading the way towards tolerance and acceptance. Fortunately, even in my "real life", I have found people like Lucille who are fine with crossdressers and transgendered people, as they are customers just like any others, and usually good ones, too — we like to feel accepted and come back for the businesses that tolerate us. I think this is a good sign!

If I'm forced to look at the naked truth as she expounds it, I have to concede that she's ultimately right, but I don't have that willpower nor the desire or wish to stop crossdressing externally and just restrict it to "mind games". It's simply not so fun 🙂 And yes, that's definitely a cause of frustration, but we all have causes of frustration — I'm not different from anyone else. In fact, I consider myself very lucky compared to you, dear Erin!

Paz felizmente tenho muita, e ainda mais paciência 🙂 Sabedoria, veremos. Consta que vem com a idade…

Desejo-te paz e sabedoria para poderes continuar o teu caminho da melhor forma que souberes.

Só te posso deixar um beijo doce e carinhoso…