Thanks, atacafani! Yes, I believe that the whole spectrum of crossdressing is quite vast… from the purely sexual urge of getting laid “as a female”, across performing in public as a female for an audience (what used to be the classical notion of “transvestism”, to “passing” on a public place, to, well, the closet crossdresser who only dresses for herself.

I’d classify myself as a closet crossdresser who dreams to go out but I’m scared 🙂

As for the urge for crossdressing… mmh it’s something that most psychologists now believe that is innate, ie. it will always be something that you’ll need to do.

Being a poser myself, I am not really quite as interested in social interaction or in dressing (the classical way), behaving correctly, etc, as you are.
Thus it’s enlightening to know how there are really different types of CDs with different motivations.

I’m starting/trying to understand them, and even though I think there are some common aspects of personality or even physical traits (but maybe it’s just me extrapolating my own view of the world to the others, e.g. being thin, socially reserved, shy person – not very keen on shooting photos, etc – for example, I also don’t really understand how people in their 50s still feel the urge to cross-dress… maybe one day I’ll figure it out. 🙂 )

As for now, thanks for sharing your thoughts!

P.S. – Nice “girls room only” story… is it just me or is that “the” big CD fetish, being treated like a girl by other girls? lol